This will be a chapter in our life that will never close. When we got married we planed to have children right away. And it happened. I found out I was expecting a month after we were married, December 2003, and I would be due August 2004. Our first baby, how exciting. My parents were very excited also. It was their first grandchild.

When I was 21 weeks I had an ultrasound. We found out we were having two baby girls. Now this was something to feel so blessed about.

The nurse called the doctor in and he looked at us kind of upset. He knew how much we were looking forward to being parents. He told me that one of the girls was too small. He had to send me somewhere else for a second checkup.

The very next day we had an appointment in Houston. I didn't think much of it. My cousin had twins and they had told her the same thing: one is smaller than the other. They called me in and right as we watched our girls he explained how one had water in her lungs and heart.

Right then he received a phone call. It was my doctor, and that is when we found out the bad news. He told my doctor over the phone these exact words: one of the twins has too much fluid in her lungs and heart. She will not live. She has three days to a week to live.

My husband and I could not believe what we were hearing, not that way at least. He could have prepared before giving that news first to my doctor in front of us. When he finished talking to my doctor he apologized to us for finding out that way.

We asked him what could we do to save her. He said I had a choice either to wait or exterminate my pregnancy right away. I said no, that will never happen. God will be the only one to decide if my baby will live or die. That's when he said, Well, you know that because they are identical, once the small one passes away so will the other one.

That day was my worst day ever. I cried so much. But my friends and family gave my husband and me strength. They did prayers for us and passed it down as a prayer chain.

The girls lasted three weeks and passed away. I remember it was a Thursday when I felt a lot of movement and then nothing for the rest of the week. I had a bad feeling in my heart that they were no longer there. The small baby (Alyssa Nynel) – the fluid was too much. It spread throughout her entire little body.

I had a normal delivery. We held them for a while and I thanked God for giving me the opportunity to have carried his two precious angels in my womb. I also thanked Him for letting me hold them in my arms.

They will always be in our hearts. Alyssa Nynel and Melyssa Gysel, we will love you always. We will be together one day.

Right now I am 4 months pregnant again, and very happy.